A Little Messy // Mixed Feelings
I don't feel so good today and I can't explain why, I've tried pinpointing what the issue is or what could have actually caused this feeling but nothing is coming to mind.
It wasn't the same earlier today, I went to church feeling all good and bubbling, came back with mixed feelings and had a good nap in between since I didn't get to sleep last night, don't ask why lol.
I woke up feeling extremely weak, hungry and aching all over my body, especially my feet, that is the aftermath of the heels I wore to church today by the way (one of the reasons I hate heels lol) I don't know how other ladies do it.
So I woke up hungry and perhaps almost angry when I wasn't allowed access to the food we had at home. I don't like to eat soup and that was basically what my mom only allowed to be eaten for dinner, which I wasn't up for.
Now I am seated here fixing something else for dinner as we speak. And this alone had worsened my mood and bad feelings about this evening.
I can't tell where all these strange feelings are coming from but I definitely hate it and want it to just go away 😭💔
And worse of all, I don't seem to know what to do to come off it but I will try my best to drag myself out of it cause it can get a little messy if it lingers for too long🥺
This is how badly I feel about tonight or whatever and for the record, I had a great time at church today and yeah, God's presence is always filled with great joy, peace and good tidings.
I know someone who has been dying for a photo of me for a while now and since it's been a while, there, I will leave just this one for today.
I trust you all had a great day and weekend.
Stay Blessed!
PS: Photo is mine except stated otherwise
𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫
~ 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐖𝐚𝐤𝐲! 𝐀 𝐦𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐢-𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐢𝐬 𝐳𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫. 𝐀 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟-𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐭𝐡 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐝𝐝𝐬.
𝐈 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐲 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐨 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐚 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞, 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 "𝐀𝐛𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐆𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞".
𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐪𝐮𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐝𝐲𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐜 𝐰𝐚𝐲
𝐇𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐨𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐒𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐄 ~
8 October 2023
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I can totally relate to those mixed feelings after a seemingly good day. It's strange how our emotions can shift so suddenly. Taking some time for self-care really makes a difference. Hope you feel better soon! 🌸
Yeah, you are right about that.
Thanks a lot, I did eventually feel much better later.
Sometimes we have to do things that we really don’t want to do like dress a certain way for things like church but it’s an important element of sacrifice. We need a bit of sacrifice routinely so that we can know what it’s like and appreciate times we don’t have to do that just a little more! Hopefully your feet feel better!
Lol, of course, you are right.
Thanks, they feel better already