Beyond The Looking Glass - Words of the Unseen - Chapter 104
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Beyond The Looking Glass is the second book in the Unseen series, a story that came to me from the other side. A story where I thought I was just the narrator until I heard the Words of the Unseen.
This second story goes beyond time and place and mixes the long ago with the here and now. Because history keeps repeating, until we learn and do something about it.
Beyond The Looking Glass - Words of the Unseen - Chapter 104
I was so hyper-focused on the goal, the savings, buying the apartment, and then in a few years buying our future place that when Yallenix told me about her homesickness, I needed some time to let it sink in.
We had been to the Netherlands together last summer, Covid bans were lifted. We were together for five years, and this was the first time we went back home.
I had been forth and back several times since moving to Spain, but for her this was the first voluntary trip.
She met my parents, and we even visited her family, which was not easy knowing that they had been the root of all evil that caused us to be jailed in more ways than one.
I accepted, which did not mean to forgive. But as a parent, I want them to have a chance at a relationship, but I was glad to be back home. The Netherlands is expensive if you have a Spanish salary. And family visits are fine, but my home is Andalusia.
Come autumn, Yallenix changed. Her moments of happiness seem to have disappeared. At night, she withdrew to the bedroom early, and after a few days, she told me that when alone, she had been crying.
She missed The Netherlands, she missed the freedom of being able to talk to people. Not having to feel afraid someone would address her in Spanish, being able to go outside by herself, knowing she would be just fine.
Being a typical man, I did not get it at first. I thought it would pass in a few days, hormones and stuff. It did not pass in a few days, and I did get it.
Actually, I kinda knew from the start that this could be a risk, and we talked about it in the past. If she was not happy here, I would help her move back to the Netherlands, but she always discarded it, saying that she would never want to leave.
Now, after several days of tears, things changed. She would like to go back. For a few months, maybe, but above all, it became clear that Spain was not her thing.
The apartment was fine, she and I were fine, but she just could not deal with the people and the language. After the trip to the Netherlands, she had picked up DuoLingo, but six weeks later, the fact that she did not dare to speak to anyone anyway discouraged her. She stopped and deleted the application.
I did not know what to say, I also did not want to be Mr Fix-It, and come in with a solution. I did that in my past life, but not anymore. What I could do is be there and listen.
It became clear that she did not want to live with her mom for those months, nor with mine. She wanted her place, her life, in a country where she would feel less of a prisoner.
I wondered why, why now after so many years?
Did it have to do with the new apartment?
The trip back home?
The plan of buying a house and possibly having a baby?
I thought homesickness would be something you grow out of, but it seems that is not the case.
It can surface due to triggers like a major life changes (new job, moving, relationship shifts). Or holidays or special occasions that remind you of home
And also when you are feeling isolated or stressed in a new environment.
Well, that sums it up nicely.
All I could do is give her space, listen, and comfort her.
At the same time, I did not know how to deal with it. We had a future planned, we had a very comfortable life, and she was probably the only person I knew I completely trusted.
But this was not about me, at least not for the moment.
The tears and the talking seemed to be helping; slowly the heaviness that had taken over faded away, and come Christmas, she was her old self again.
It was gone, but not gone from my mind.
Even though I knew it could have been just a phase, it worried me. What I wanted most was for her to be happy. Her life had not been easy so far, and she had come such a long way since we got together.
That was exactly what worried me, she had grown so much as a person. She was so much stronger now. She was no longer the shy girl who never wanted to return to the Netherlands.
That girl might have made room for a girl who, even though she does not want to, is ready to do it herself.
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