5 minute freewrite 2936 prompt a fear of buttons

This is my post for #freewriters 2936 prompt a fear of buttons hosted by @mariannewest

Enjoy life while you can still do things without pain. That is my advice to the young. My body wants me to stop the things I do, but my mind keeps telling me to push through the pain. Also, I am trying to get off pharmaceutical pain meds.

I have found that I cause most of my pain by the things I refuse to stop doing. Days like today, when the weather is overcast and nippy, I have been sitting in the house watching TV. I did not feel pain bad enough to take the first pill until almost 11am. When working outside or fishing, I take the second pill by 11:30 and the last one around 4:30 for the day. Not to say I have no pain in between those times, they are the times I set for myself to take them. When I first started taking the pills, my daughter, a nurse, told me to take them at the same time every day, but now, since I am trying to stop taking them, I am taking them when the pain reaches an 8 on the 1 to 10 scale, 10 is the worst.

The hand pain is similar to the back pain when it comes to doing things, the less I do, the less pain. It is also weird, I can carry things like you do a bucket, but I can not pick anything up like you do a coffee cup.

There are some things I can not do at all, like using a hammer or scissors. Then there are buttons, and I wish they had never been invented. The thought of buttoning something scares me. It is not a fear of buttons, it is the pain I feel while doing it. Putting socks on is another painful thing, but I have to do it.

I appreciate my daughter doing the wash, but she buttons everything that has one on it. If I say something to her like only button one if it is needed, or you do not need to button my pants. She will fly off at me with a comment, as I offended her. So whatever she wants to do, I will do my best to unbutton and button.
photo is mine