Eid Alone in the Grind: Why I’m Working While Everyone Else Celebrates

it is that time of the year when people finally get to live with each other who were far from home like uni students go back to home, people forgiving each other just to spend the day together.

is quite a beautiful day if we talk about and that happens on every Eid. But in my case it is quite opposite like I don't feel like I belong there and is disguised as someone who's someone else.

The kind of events makes me feel like how far left I'm behind and lack every basic thing. While most people are together enjoying and celebrating

I'm someone who's out there going to work yet another day. The same miserable feelings that I've made no progress yet to have relief on a day like this.

Be Grateful When you have it all already

There's a lot of things that have brought me to this very moment, I've never told anyone how difficult of a life I had not just me but my brother's too.

Losing the father early and than mom working her entire life until I went out and started working myself.

You won't get it what it feels like when the days are passing, you're growing older but the progress isn't there.

But the thing that have brought some peace of mind is seeing my brother's out of the misery I had dealt in my life.

That has been the end goal always like giving them a life what I couldn't have. So on days like this while I'm heading to work, I pray that they have all the fun and stay happy as they deserve it more and it brings me more happiness and peace.

Fear of not living upto expectations

Everyone is expecting that I'd do good and become the person that'll turn things around and Gonna break the cycle.

I know I'll and it's just the matter of time so that keeps me going on days like this.

It ain't the time to have fun or be distracted by other things. I'm so focused on what I do and take those things seriously that I don't even hang out with anyone

I haven't been to hometown in over a year because that makes no sense, I should be doing whatever it takes to make things better in my twenties.

If I can't figure it out while in my twenties I don't know it's even possible to do that in thirties. I'd consider myself a dead guy If I don't make it before getting into thirties.

And who wants to live with the regret of not making your time worth living? Not living upto your potential? Lucky that you've it all already and be grateful for it because not everyone is born with that silver spoon and social media have become so fake that that everyone is pretending they're rich, they have everything

That it'll put you in a depressing situation that you're only one behind. So leave that social media and just stay focused, this is to myself and to anyone else who's going through it and needed to hear it.

I hope it'll help and there will be a day in future when I'll look back to this day and read this once again to feel nostalgia.

_{that's all folks.}