Hiveghana week 102. Struggling to belong

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The society have a standard and if you are not able to meet with the standard of the society, then it means that you don't belong. Struggling to belong can really be a bad experience but if it has not happened to you, you might not really understand the weight of it.

Moving on to the topic that I want yo talk about for this week. Quoting directly from the #hiveghana post for the week. 👇
"Fitting in can feel like a silent battle, shaping yourself to match expectations while losing pieces of who you are. Has there ever been a moment when you struggled to belong" 👈 This post what I have had to face for more than twenty years of my life.

Let me carry you back a little iny past. When I was a little girl, I had problem understanding what is happening in school. It did not start that way but because I am the type that play alot, sometimes I do well in class and sometimes because of play I will come last position in class. But when I got to primary four, it become a norm for me. Failure became part of my second name. I can't seems to follow any more. My mind was never there in class. So my mother decided that I should stay away from school and go find a trade to learn. Though it was not what I want, but I had no choice seeing that I don't understand anything in school anymore.

The day I left school, it looks as if something big was taken out of my system. I was never Happy that I had to live school, but I did. I started learning a trade as suggested, but was never happy doing it. I kept seeing my class mates going to school everyday, but I can't follow them. That was how I started struggling as a school dropout. I continued like that until I got married with that silent struggle in me and the tears every night when no one is around. When ever I come across my old friends from school I can't talk much because we are no longer in the same level. I never got to express myself very well before them, each time I want to talk I will end up stammering. Because there is always thinking voice inside ofe that will always remind me that I don't belong here.

HOW DID I OVERCOME THIS?
Hmmm! Friends it took me twenty five years later to stand up to face my reality. I took the bull by the horn by going back to complete my secondary school in the year 2013-2016. I was shocked how my result became one of the best that year. I went on to Nasarawa state college of education for my NCE. I also came out the best in my department. I studied English language in combination of Igbo language. When the results came out I was given an award for the best student in my department. Presently I just concluded my program with Ahmadu Bello University ZARIA, one of the best universities in Nigeria and my result is also good. All glory to God who helped me and gave me the courage to face my fears and concer them.

In conclusion, we can all decide to make a difference no minding what the society is saying concerning us. It is what we say that matters and not what people say about us. The society once called me a dull students, but today the same society is calling me the best student. What a world!

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